Today -- 31 Jul'09

The past few weeks, have been really mixed for me. With all the feelings flowing in - all at the same time made me and my life go haywire, in the process of developing my so called self-emote, I went back to my cocoon, to go, sit back and think my life over.
Did I really needed to be sad? Did I really needed to be frustrated and pained about stuff, which dint matter and touch me? Do I have to take everything on me? Did I really needed to be upset about a future which had not yet come, and let the days just pass by....
Sometimes you are fed up, playing parts to your securely divided life.
How many parts do you have to play in a single day..?? Knowing that its a pressure, still you are expected to carry each part with vigor. Is it even necessary..?? Or Is it that difficult to be playing what you actually are..??

Cant we just live the life as we are, Why is it that even before you are born, frames are already set which you are expected to follow. And we unconsciously keep on doing that very stuff and the we realise is when we are already a slave of the system we have started to hate.

If you think of this world as a place intended simply for our happiness, youfind it quite intolerable; think of it as a place of training and correction and it's not so bad.

- CS Lewis

Is there a way out then..?? Can the things come back to normal..?? Can the life be back on the track we intend it to be on..

I wish I get my answers soon...

Day Today - 21 Apr'09 - The Past week..!!

Heya Peoples....

I know its been quite a while since I was away, and there was no news from my side on this Blog as promised in the previous post. So here I am today after exactly a month, to take out all.

As it would have been clear, this past month I was too occupied with My medical visits and yes THE JOB too was keeping me busy.

The bad part is when I started writing this post, I was literally in high spirits, saved it as a draft, and after two hours straight I come back with a little low mood. Why can't some people just stay where they are - Away from MY LIFE, STOP interfering and telling me what I gotta do - Get a reality check dude - look into yourself and tell me what you do and then point a finger to me. (I know cant say that on his face - one of my seniors - today he completely made my life hell.)

Hmm... to start with..... I tell you guys, these doctors and specially Hospitals are like vultures, rather leeches, who wont leave you until who are completely out of your money, patience and totally forgotten for what reasons you approached them. I literally met one of these kind of a doctor (surgeon). I had to go under this minor surgery and he was making quite a big deal out of it. I mean he called me three times in a day and then returned us...and then at the end he tells us, I have to get admitted. (Just because he had come to know - I had this cashless insurance card) And after what to say some half hour discussion rather heated argument, I had a fight with him. And guess what I get to hear from the receptionist..?? she refuses to even enter my details and tells me - "First satisfy the doctor." and this actually infuriated me -"Since when this has started to happen? The doctors needs to satisfy the patient or is it vice-versa these days" she had it from me and then the doctor came walking down, and I dunno why started shouting at me at the reception are and that obviously was his biggest mistake. :D :P

So, I walk out without the surgery and go to a better Hospital. The best surgeon I could ever meet. He is actually a gem and soooo sweet. He was a very senior surgeon and still treat even my minute problem very sweetly, still, I knew this time I would be having it under local anesthesia, still I was confident and doctor for sure got me at ease. It was just a 20-30 min thing, painful yes, but I finally got rid of that painful abscess. It was so relieving.

And then followed the weeks of dressings... which were really painful, but yeah couldnot help and guess what the doc had to say - "hey you have now become a strong girl!" ... yeah.. I guess so.. :)


Nothing exciting in my life, for the past month, except, the job taking most of my weekdays and weekends. The scene everywhere is the same and so no comments there. Still I look forward for the sun to rise and shower his warm blessings on me, and Yes, a better future ahead :P

So that's that. Now that I am all fit and fine, I'll promise...cut it..say I'll be more active from now on. :)


Current Excitement: Planning for a gang outing, hope it turns out well :)
Current nervousness: Hope Everything goes well on my career front..**fingers crossed**
Current Anticipation: I am planning for a Hairstyle makeover... How would the new Look turn out to be....?/// ---- My Mom's gonna kill me if it turns out to be smthin really weird ---- (Yeah guys sorry --- I knw its still pending... needed to conserve finances :(
Current High: Going home this weekend :)
Current Low: Waiting for that opportunity. Dunno, it will come or not :'(
Current To Do: Makeover one of my Other blog.


Anyways.. Ciao all.. Will obviously keep u all posted with new developments and something of the above changes. And as Promised... cut it...as stated I'll be more active on this one.

Day Today - 20th Mar'09 - The Past week..!!

This past week, had really been both amazing and sad for me. At one point it was marvelous and at the other it was crappy.
The weekend started with me partying with friends on the Friday. But with the added working hours on Saturdays, we had to bounce back to our home early.
Then came the much talked about Saturday, which was completely overbooked for me at least. First half was dedicated to the job, and later part was the best i had in recent times. I went out with best of my friends for lunch at 'Chowk' - (serves Indian and mughlai kinda cuisines) and then went for a movie. The movie part was funny, coz the movie was an average one - which both of us had already seen and to top it, Both of us were soooo sleepy - All thanks to the heavy and filling lunch.
And dere actually came moments when both of us were dozing off on our seats. :P

So after the movie got over, it was already too late. We had to rush to our homes.

Sunday was what i would still rate better, coz I finally got the pair of shoes I have been dyin to buy from the last few weeks. :D. I even dedicated a full post over it, which you can obviously read here...

So, the weekend, as you can see was quite happening kinds... but sadly I missed Roadies, this sunday :( and dint even get any time to catch throughout the week - due to odd office timings.

The week too has nothin to boast about, other than me not keeping well, I morning I wake up and Deres this angry burn on my right arm above the elbow, due to which I have been under medications (which includes a lot of antibiotics) and tests and what not. Whichj are making me go really weak, almost kille dmy appetite. My Doctor on the other hand is so keen on increasing my tension and she too seems to be really tensed and I obviously cant understand any jargon that she has to discuss with her husband. I hate going to doctors, and regular medicines completely kill my tastebuds and I hate it..!! and guess what... she's written, few more tests...aagghhh.. so my weekend obviously would be consumed in this. How nice.



Current Excitement: None.
Current nervousness: Hope My infection subsides, and deres no need of incision. :(
Current Anticipation: I am planning for a Hairstyle makeover... How would the new Look turn out to be....?/// ---- My Mom's gonna kill me if it turns out to be smthin really weird ----
Current High: None.
Current Low: More tests for me..



Anyways.. Ciao all.. Will obviously keep u all posted with new developments.

Day Today - 6 Mar'09 - Saturdays are Now Working :( :(

Saturdays are working for me.... boohoohoo... **sniff**sniff**. No more packing up on Fridays, Instantly the week has become so long... humph.

The day today - I came into the office without any feeling of bliss. Fridays used to be stressful but still we could see the the silver lining of Saturday being an off day. But yeah the bombshell of Saturday becoming working fell on all of us, and they think by allowing casuals on that day, they can make up.... :( :( BIG NO..!!


The happy feelings have gone... **sniff**sniff** Saturday being working just doesn't fit in. Alright, it might be just a half day, but still it is working and what chance would we have of leaving office at half day, if theirs still job to be done... aagghh.

... The world seems to be crashing over .... well that seems to be an overstatement. GAWD... I cant believe how much I cribbed about it... but I think you guys would agree, that it is bad :(. heeh.. okyes I wont start again. Coz you guys have had enough of my cribbing, and I know all of you are busy. and too stressed out yourselves to listen to my cribbing... ok ok I am stopping here... dont kill me ok. :)


Current Excitement: Gotta shop and order for the shoe I am dying to get my hands rather feet on.
Current nervousness: I am planning for a Hairstyle makeover... How would the new Look turn out to be....?///
Current Anticipation: Whether I would be able to leave office at half day...???///
Current High: The idea of getting those shoes..finally :D
Current Low: Saturday being working and what if I dont get those shoes....


So, that's the Update on the current Heart, Soul & Mind situation.

For the rest... will keep you posted..!!

And for the achievement part, I have finally been able to get a net connect activated from My cell phone, that you can connect to he PC, so finally net would be on and I would be more regular... yippee...!! :) Ciao.

Day Today - 19 Feb'09

Humph...!!!!!!

What an idle .... tiring day. Filled with follow ups, mails and regular work. YAWN...!!

The best way to kill even the minutest amount of time left after the long hours of strenuous job, is either to sit for a coffee, idle chatter or checking mails...wow how interesting.. humph.

I just found a new and an interesting way to do that very time killing activity, and hold your breath - Lo and Behold ---- its capturing idle moments in office, and trust me.. its fun! when everyone gets involved and Your image gallery is left with some funny idle moments along with weird expressions and reactions of your colleagues.

Had a big time kinda argument oriented fight with a friend colleague, and I decided to talk only when its needed or rather professionally, but then which is near to Impossible, for me to be not speaking or chattering idly.

Current Excitement: Gotta shop and order for the shoe I am dying to get my hands rather feet on.
Current nervousness: How would the new Look turn out to be....?///
Current Anticipation: Who will it be?/ Is this it then? [Keep guessing ;) ]
Current High: 1 day more to go for the extended weekend :D
Current Low: Hurting someone unintentionally.


Well that's the Update on the current Heart, Soul & Mind situation.

For the rest... will keep you posted..!!


And comes for the achievement part - I award myself for cooking food for myself instead of giving in to lame excuses and stupid snacks and junk foodstuff. And also, getting myself home cooked food from my kitchen, and avoiding the regular Tiffinwala's Local and extremely full of garlic - food, which keeps repeating itself every 5 days.

Home cooked food feels like bliss and believe me my trips home have become the most happier ones, as me have started eating even the lamest of the food all homemade and which is actually a pain in the ass for my sister, as she has special choices and then I stress so much on Chapatis' these days that this has given even my mother a strange happiness and contentment of sorts... "Maa di Ladli Sudhar Gayi" - who just a year back, stressed so much on the most weirdest and strangest of food, which gave my mom such hysterics - "Oh how she used to hate it..!!!" and "How I loved to irritate her" ;) :D **sniff**sniff**


One mOre Day tO go...One mOre Day tO go...trAa La lA..La lA...

Ogies...byes....!!! will keep ya posted on more---- chit chat!

Day Today - 13th Feb'09

Have just one word for today - DEPRESSING..!!

But then, all Fridays are. Depressing Fridays, teach us the value of blissfully shorter weekends. Getting two days of off for weekend is a luxury in itself.
My Yellow shoes, again made the headlines and yeah It was as i said on popular demand, me and everyone around me was missing those :( .... I love them :)

So Nothing more special about the day, But yeah further plans are of course lined up, I have movies waiting in my pen drive. Which will keep me occupied for tonight, next day is still undecided though - What am I gonna do, whether to go home and sit idle or shopping or form a plan with friends.
Sunday is completely planned out though, with friends receiving the pending Treat of my birthday, and me receiving the pending gifts from their side, what do i ask for, well something that brings a hole to their pockets, well that's something still to be figured out.


xiexie!

Day Today - 12 Feb'09

Day today, too has nothing to boast about, the regular - arguments and gossips. Work obviously remains the vital part -LOL-

Day again rose, with morning rush for getting ready, today was to expect extra efforts on my creative mind to wear something even I am not confident about, and with the regular awes and raised eyebrows from the female colleagues, anyways, now that i know i can carry it, irrespective of any looks i get or constant remarks on my guts for such experimenting.

This done, office again was the same as always, constant jabbering s from colleagues and clashing tempers were the theme for today's day at work, and with my temper being at the lose today not a good for the counterparts. The Headline story still remains, The lunch break, which had Fried rice - all made by me, and yeah waiting for one's food to get served always forces us towards over-eating, and any friend's served lunch (obviously on the same table) becomes the Hot Target for everyone's attack and respite for the hungry stomachs. After the first half's grueling work, one obviously gets a bigger appetite.
Second half has nothing interesting to talk about though, except a bit of work.

Plans for home would be to watch the pending movies, still waiting to seen by me, hope no tele-shows interests me today. But then, not my fault again, what would you chose between - watching T.V. on just a click of the remote, or to set up the Laptop with the hanging on the head knowledge of wrapping that all up in a very sleepy state, no so this always makes me to chose my television over the Lappy :) second would be to try cook food today or stick to some fruit diet for dinner, well would always depend on my mood when i reach home. Hey that reminds me to get awarded for a record breaking achievement of not eating any Maggi the whole week, only healthy and good food had been the Target for this week and yippeee, i have just 2 more days to go in fulfilling it, ( I am not counting sunday :P, coz - you never know).

This brings to the end of the jist, of today, and any new actions would obviously be updated.

By the way - sad news is I wont be able to watch Bedtime Story on the big screen **sniff**sniff** have to do with the small screen - - boohoohoo.

Ciao..!! :)

Day Today - 11 Feb'09

Wonder, wonder, wonder..... have you ever felt as if your life is going the same every day.

Its been a year and nothing new has happened, Life in itself has become a routine, in which i feel short of even time for myself added with complaints from both family and friends that i have become too occupied to care or ever put a thought. Wow seems amazing, I way because, when i had like all the time in the world, every one seemed to be too busy and now that I do not, everyone instantly seems to have felt the absence or rather to keep my self happy, i would say come to know my importance in their lives. Cool.
Of My days, well they are quite boring and inactive. Every inactive day rises with my getting up, getting dressed and running short of time - reach office the usual work or no work, seems constant, day in and day out, so again the day today seems to pass, in inaction.

Yeah, i know you cant expect much at office but, am I wrong in wishing to get back my student life - the careless, the independent, the sense of being the master of ones own life, rather that being governed.
How I wish to go on a long holiday, to a place where there are no mobile networks, and no one knows me. Hahah. Ah to dream of such a bliss... tears trickle down... lol.

wish wish wish..... keep wishing. ;)